It has been so long since I wrote anything that I am finding it really difficult to write now… . And just as that thought passed through my head – mere seconds from me giving up on writing anything again – I fired up the blank WordPress page once more and put the thought down in a jumble. Then, I changed the heading of what I had in mind to write, deciding I was going to write about the struggles I’ve been facing as a writer.

Personally, writing has always been my go-to mode of expressing myself and as someone with a roaming and imaginative mind, writing has given me a means to thread my thoughts and fully explore the length of a thought before hopping onto the next best imaginary island. My head is sometimes a beautiful place to live in; could be chaotic but in an organized and pleasant way if you get what I mean *wink* *wink*.

Recently though, I’ve been struggling. It’s not like I don’t have the idea or know what I want to write on, its just that the words are not forthcoming. This not even like writers block where I’m not getting creative ideas to write about, its more about putting the ideas I have into physical words. By the time I want to write, it’s like I go blank, more like short of words. The words are present in my head, from the beginning to the end even, but when it’s time to write or even vocalize them, they just don’t flow almost as if something is missing and they can’t crossover. Like, come on! I got this thing on lockdown just write it for goodness’ sake! It drives me crazy honestly. So I end up staring and my blank screen for minutes to hours before I decide, “maybe I’ll do better tomorrow.”

Sometimes, I even tell myself, just write it, ignore the errors and when you’re done writing you’ll correct it. No pressure, you got this. I truly wanted to “got this”, and often times I did until I was faced with the blank page of my screen. The words didn’t just flow. Same thing when I try with a book and pen, you know, just incase the jinx was with the blank screen and switching to the traditional method would do the trick, but that didn’t work. I was literally short of words.

Just imagine finding it difficult to do something you consider yourself good at, the frustration it’ll bring… Exactly! That’s what I’ve been struggling with. But, God helping me, I know that it’ll pass and once again I will be able to write as easy as the wind blows through a tree.

Bonus Post: A Poem! https://chrissyoladele.home.blog/2021/04/28/struggle-the-poem/

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